Saturday, May 09, 2020

Hawkwoman Returns!

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Well, here's an exciting rumor. Hawkwoman, Shayera, is supposedly making a comeback. Shayera is supposedly making a cmeback as Hawkman fights for his life against the infection from the Bat Who Laughs. I'm 100% here for this. Hawkwoman was one of my first heroes in the comics. I used to pick up Hawkman comics anywhere I found them. Garage sales, thift stores, antique shops, you get it. I never really warmed up to Kendra aka Hawkgirl. She paled in comparision to my Queen of Thanagar. 
If you want to witness her return, make sure to pick up Hawkman #18. I'd go ahead and pick up Bryan Hitch's entire run BEFORE 18 as well. It was the best Hawkman I've read in ages. Maybe ever. 
P.S. There is a Supergirl connection in his run as well. It was pretty cool. 

Supergirl AKA the Lex Luthor show

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Remember when Supergirl debuted on CBS waaaay back in on July 8, 2015? CBS debuted the pilot at Comic-Con and girls everywhere got excited. A female led superhero show hadn't happened in decades. I was old enough to grow up with Lynda Carter's Wonder Woman. I also consider Xena a bit of a Superhero, so there's that. 

I'll be honest, I wasn't that excited about Supergirl. I didn't know much about her despite being a huge Superman fan and I really wanted someone else, like Batgirl or another Birds of Prey series. Plus, CBS put it in the time slot opposite of Gotham. I was really enjoying Gotham. It was fun. The marketing for the show started and I have to admit, I was intrigued. The costume looked fantastic and the actress they picked really seemed to fit the part. I had no idea who Melissa Benoist was, but she definitely looked like the girl I'd seen on so many comic covers. Plus, they were promising me a story about a young adult woman breaking free to be the person she'd always dream of being. 

I jumped on board about episode 4 of season 1 after I'd done some research into Kara Zor-El, who was originally Linda Lee, who was originally some wish Jimmy Olson had in a very old Superman comic. (Creepy) I knew who Cat grant was from Superman and I loved Calista Flockhart, so that was another bonus. I loved the new addition of Alex Danvers as a human sister and the sister moments in the series were the heart of it all. Cat Grant's wisdom and Danver's sisters heart. So good. They really set the show up with a strong feminist lean and that really appealed to me. I was pretty sure Alex Danvers was going to come out at some point as well. I mean, she was such a lesbian. I was all in by the end of season 1, but rumor had it CBS was going to pull the plug.

Of course, it was a show I liked. Those always get cancelled. Then we heard CW was going to pick it up. OH! Hope! Which, coincidentally was what Supergirl was all about. I was already watching The Flash over there as well as trying to Netflix binge the first couple seasons of Arrow to catch up so I could also watch it on CW. CW was beginning to be the hub of Superheroes and I was all for that. The more the merrier. 

Over these last 4 seasons, I fell in love with Kara Zor-El. I cosplay Supergirl, I've done charity events as Supergirl.  I am in the process of collecting every Supergirl comic ever published. I have Supergirl statues and shirts and posters. I even write Supergirl fanfic now. Yep, I fell hard for the character. I always loved Clark, but Kara is even more compelling for me. Clark never really had a connection to what he lost. He might be an alien, but he didn't lose a whole world right at the beginning of his adolescence. Kara did. She lost everyone she had ever loved at 13 or 14 or 12, depending on the source. I connected with that. I lost my foundation and everything I believed in at 14. I suppressed something out of fear for nearly a decade. She suppressed her powers. That alien part of her. I wasn't the girl I really wanted to be or was until I was 21. Well, honestly, I'm still working on that. Still, there was a strong connection there for me. When they introduced Lena, there was an even stronger connection. Not fitting. Being social awkward. Not having many people you could trust. Especially the people closest to you. Top that off with Alex coming out (I knew it!) and it gave me another connection.

Unfortunately, everything they had built over at CBS was about to start unraveling as season 2 progressed. First, with the Mon-El debacle. Putting our very strong female lead in a relationship with a male that owned slaves, drugged it's citizens to keep them compliant, called her names and basically abused her verbally. He manipulated and lied to her and the show began to shift a bit to the male characters. Supergirl was getting less screen time and had embarrassingly lost it's feminist message. It got a little better after a large fan outcry and the show even had the character leave, come back, apologize for being an ass, and leave again. 

Now, here we are at the end of Season 5 of Supergirl and let me tell you, I am tired. Exhausted. Sad. Disappointed. Let down. Devastated. I literally had a nightmare about the show 2 days ago. WTF? 
Supergirl isn't even the main character in the show anymore. Lex Luthor is. The plots are either reused from previous seasons or just plain awful. ALL the female characters have been sidelined for male characters and even the POC males are sidelined for the white male Lex Luthor. 
The thing is, I love Mr. Jon Cryer's Lex Luthor. He's everything you want a Lex Luthor to be. Infuriating, manipulative, evil, genius, and psycho. Season 4 ended on a high note because of him.  He's overtaken the show now though and it's clear that the writers have no clue what they are doing at this point. The show isn't even recognizable as the same show it was on CBS. Other show runners often throw shade at Supergirl in their shows or chime in about what a mess the show is. It's embarrassing.

Kara Zor-El had no plot this season. None. They destroyed the strong friendship (possible romance) between her and the other female favorite, Lena Luthor, all the while promising fans for a "Fight for Lena's soul". There was no fight. The build up of that relationship and the secret Kara kept from Lena about who she really was 4 seasons in the making and they just failed completely at making it at all interesting or angsty or compelling. They took one of their strongest, most beloved characters, who once said, "I've never stood behind a man." and had her consistently manipulated and too dumb to see it, by her brother, Lex Luthor. There were countless articles on how this was one of the "Most compelling characters" on TV. They have reduced her to a sad trope. We haven't seen a true Danvers Sisters moment in ages. They barely have scenes together anymore. Alex fought so hard to be the Director of the DEO and this season she walked away from it because of Lex. Lex pushed her out. Without a fight. She's the fighter. Often more so than Supergirl. They added a trans character with Nicole Maines as Nia Nal and there was ample opportunity to showcase her cool dream powers but we barely see this character anymore. She got one big episode and back in the can. You'd never even know Alex had a girlfriend at this point. Kelly? Kelly who? All the while, touting diversity and feminism. Ugh. 

If I was a feminist hater, I couldn't possibly do more damage to this show than the writers of this show have done. If I hated the character of Supergirl, I would be hard pressed to destroy this show any more than the show runners have. If I hated two strong women working together to save the world in a fun and interesting way, I would do exactly what this show has done to Lena Luthor and Kara Danvers. There's not much left of Supergirl to salvage and I have no hope left that they will. The CW announced last year that they were going to start a Superman TV series. You can be sure that what has happened on Supergirl will absolutely not happen over there. 

To top it off, DC announced that the Supergirl movie was now off the drawing board because " doesn't make sense to bring in Supergirl after what happened to Superman in Justice League..." 
WHAT? Seriously? These asshats do understand that Kara Zor-El is her own person, SEPARATE from Kal-El, right? She has her own agency. Her own history. Her own villains and they have ZERO to do with Superman. 

I can't even, anymore. It even feels like DC cancelled her comic to prop up Brian Michael Bendis' Superman. It complicated what they were trying to do if she was in the world, EXISTING, at the same time. I'm so mad, ya'll. 

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It really does seem like the world just doesn't want Supergirl, except it does. We just happen to be women who want stories about women and it's clear that is something that many writers out there have no idea how to do. Especially on TV.  and in-fighting and cattiness just don't work anymore. They never really did, we just tolerated them. The Xena writers got it. Just write a human, or in this case a Kryptonian. Not male or female. Just a person. That's the first step. Then, for Rao's sake, get some women in the writer's room and don't make the head show runner the one that wrote "Gossip Girls" if you want feminism. Stop using tropes from the 80's and actually do some research into the character you are writing for. Stay focused and actually chart out a season and stick to it, rather than feeling like a dozen different people came in at different times to plot the show. Batwoman hasn't had any problems with that and they are are season 1. Have fun with it. It's a comic book show. It's allowed to get wacky sometimes. Let Supergirl use her powers. 

We have 2 episodes to go this season, and let me tell you, depending on what happens these last two episodes between Kara Zor-El and Lena Luthor, I might be done. I wouldn't recommend this show to anyone. I certainly wouldn't recommend it to a young girl looking for inspiration. It's anything but and it's broken. I'm not sure it can be fixed. Mostly, though, it's like so many other things in a female's life. Just so damned disappointing. 

Wednesday, April 08, 2020

Worst Villains of Supergirl Part 2.

Hey Guys, here's part 2 of that list with the reasons why I feel like this is their placement on the list.

Coming in at number 5 is the Silver Banshee.

Silver Banshee is an actual Supergirl villain and I was excited to see her.  She has an interesting backstory having roots in Ireland/Scotland and a pretty deadly serious power of being able to kill anyone with her sonic scream or in some versions a death stare, if, and here's the kicker, she knows their name.  That makes the secret identity thing pretty darn important. She's a real threat. The fact that she works with Kara at Catco makes the stakes fairly high. In one version of the comics Supergirl and Silver Banshee end up being friends.

So, why is she number 5 on worst villains? All that potential and the writers did squat with her. We get one episode of a quick backstory, lame fight and no threat to Kara. It was a joke. This could have been a really good reoccurring villain for Kara. Someone that maybe, eventually we would see her win back to the good side. She had the potential to be at least half of a season's worth of story line. Instead, she's never taken seriously and done in one. Shame. Maybe we can get a redo now that Crisis has changed everything. 

I'm sure you're seeing the pattern now, right? It's not that these villains are lame, but what they did with and to them that really makes them lame. It's frustrating to see Flash and even Arrow take bad guys straight from the comics and do them so well, while Supergirl takes them, those them in one episode, kills them off or just writes them off, never to be heard form again in one episode. Why?

Moving on.  Number 4.

Morgan Edge/Max Lord

Let's be honest, there's no difference here. These two guys are exactly the same character in the Supergirl TV series but not in the comics. 

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                          There's Maxwell. Shady business dude.

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Here's Morgan Edge. Shady business dude.

Maxwell was in season 1 and disappeared in the move from CBS to CW.

 Maxwell is now going to be Wonder Woman's nemesis in Wonder Woman 1984. 

Maxwell Lord runs Lord Technologies.  However, there a 4 different Maxwell Lords to choose from. Maxwell Lord the first to Maxwell Lord the IV. Some more shady than others. After Crisis, Max the IV helps form the Justice League. We later find out it was because he wanted to dominate the world and had a computer that he planned on mind-controlling everyone with. Sound familiar? He goes on to kill *SPOILERS* Blue Beetle, Ted Kord, when Ted finds out he is being shady. He goes on to create the OMACS, humans infected with nano-virus, that he uses to hunt down superheroes or metas. He himself, at one point, is a cyborg, which DC eventually abandoned. He plays into the story of Checkmate as well. A sort of gray character. Although, in my book, killing Ted Kord makes you a dark, dark gray. 

So, why number 4? Guess what, Supergirl writers did none of this with him. None. They had him create a bizzaro Supergirl. He learned Supergirl's identity by figuring out that Alex is her sister. He distrusts the government because his scientist parent's died in some government experiment. He is imprisoned, without a fair trial, in the DEO. He ends up saving Kara from the black mercy and starts working for the DEO or at least Alex and Supergirl and helps them make synthetic Kryptonite to fight Non and Astra but then, he is forgotten. Dropped. Never to be heard from again. 

And Morgan Edge. Less good guy, more shady businessman, far less interesting, a villain for Lena Luthor more than Supergirl and also disappeared without a trace. 

In the comics he was an Intergang Crime Boss and the evil version of Cat Grant. 

Honestly, both of these guys aren't great, but Maxwell definitely had more potential. He was almost the first version of the Lena Luthor we got. She definitely took over that moral gray, tech genius, world saver role that they had built up for Max. It's too bad they didn't keep him. I'd love to see those two face off.  I'd also love to see Lena Luthor be the founder of Checkmate in the TV series. 

So, 4th for Max because he disappeared and built up to nothing in the end and 4th for Morgan because well, he just sucked.

Alright, that's it for this post.  Coming up next is my top three pics. The worst of the worst or the best of the worst or the worst of the best. 

Sunday, January 12, 2020

Worst Villains of Supergirl

There's no new Supergirl this Sunday, so I thought I'd share with you my top ten WORST Supergirl villains of the CW Supergirl TV Series.  These are villains that either just went nowhere, had potential but where one-shotted, were just plain bad, or just didn't work at all.

Supergirl has a terrible habit of introducing fantastic villains and just misusing them.  Either by sticking them in one episode or as a filler villain and then offing them so easily that you're left disbelieving they were ever really a threat to begin with.

One of those is Jemm. First of all, Jemm isn't really a villain in the updated canon of DC Comics.  He's a red Martian and a clone.  The green Martians cloned a red working class that they treated as equals that ended up settling Saturns moons.  The white Martians cloned yellow Martians as slaves.
Jemm is a red Martian. He has telepathy like J'onn J'onzz.  Later on in canon, he was brainwashed by Lex Luthor using the Philosopher's Stone.  

CW Supergirl however, made Jemm a ruthless convict that had been sentenced to Fort Rozz and who escaped the DEO during an earthquake.  It was a filler episode. He used his psychic powers for evil, nearly kills Alex, Supergirl's sister, but is killed by Hank Henshaw (who is secretly the Martian Manhunter) and that's the end of that.  The character can't be used again.  He's dead.  All of the Martian Manhunter stories later on in the series could have used him as well as when Lex showed up.  Unfortunately, early Supergirl didn't have much foresight.  

So, Jemm is #10 just for misuse.


Another character that was a one-shot and killed was T.O. Morrow.  This was incredibly disappointing for me because T.O. Morrow created the Red Tornado and I LOVE the Red Tornado.  Now, CW Supergirl did have him use his genius to created Red Tornado, so points for that.  Let me tell you.  It was the absolute cheesiest and worst Red Tornado I have ever seen.  So bad. In comic canon Red Tornado eventually turns on Dr. Morrow and becomes a good guy.  Not in Supergirl. Nope. Alex kills T.O. Morrow and Supergirl uses all her angst and trauma and newfound knowledge of shady crap her parents did to blast the android to pieces. This is still, arguably one of the best moments in Supergirl as a whole and honestly, it was the scene that made me decide I was in it for the long haul. Still, And again, that's the end of that.  Game over.  No more T.O. Morrow, who would've been awesome on "The Flash". No more Red Tornado.

T.O. Morrow is #9

Moving on, Season 3 of Supergirl was full of bad guys.  Morgan Edge, Lillian Luthor, Reign, Purity, Pestilence and the Kryptonian witch that created the Worldkillers, Selena.  

Purity, the Worldkiller.  Purity was a ridiculous character. Part Kryptonian, part Black Siren, Part Martian Manhunter, this character was all over the place. Her powers were whatever they needed for them to be in the moment and it just didn't work.  She was a character created simply to show us that it was possible to seperate the Worldkiller from the Person and give us some hope that Sam Arias/Reign might be saved.  But only IF she really wanted to be. We meet her as Julia right before Supergirl scaring her triggers her powers.  She is eventually absorbed into Reign after helping take down her sister WorldKiller Pestilence with a sonic scream. I'm putting Purity at #8 because...what a mess.

Purity is #8

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Pestilence was another one of these Worldkillers.  Pestilence, who we find out from the Legion of Superheroes' Saturn Girl, would evolve over time and become more powerful.  She would eventually be known as Blight and become responsible for the destruction of almost all life in the 31st century. Holy cow!  That's some serious power, right!? This makes her far more dangerous than our main antagonist Reign.  However, she is easily and quickly defeated and absorbed by Reign.  We are told as an audience that the Legion traveled back in time just to kill Blight/Pestilence in her non-evolved stage because once she had evolved she was impossible to stop.  The Legion have now altered time and what happens in the 31st century is unknown. I'm putting Pestilence at #7 because this was such a let down fight.  They barely used her and when we see her she is so easily defeated, it's laughable.  The entire Worldkiller storyline should have been handled better.  Getting to know Reign's alter-ego Sam Arias, is what made us care.  It would've been great is each of these women had been utilized throughout the season as characters that we got to know and care about and when they changed to the Worldkillers it would have been far more impactful.  

Pestilince is #7

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Back to season 1.  I love season 1, but man, it had some problems. Villains being a big one.

Indigo came in at the back half of season one.  She's played by the actress that played Supergirl in Smallville. Laura VanderVoort. She was basically a replacement for Kara's Aunt Astra, who had been the big villain, but was killed by her adopted sister Alex when she shoved a Kryptonite sword through her chest.  This left her Uncle Non to take over and he was far more ruthless than Astra.  Suddenly, out of nowhere we get Indigo. She has come to Earth, hacks computers, causes chaos and then discovers Non is on Earth.  She seduces him, their whole relationship is creepy uncomfortable, they team up to destroy humans and after almost succeeding in killing everyone on Earth with Myriad, is ripped in half by J'onn J'onzz aka the Martian Manhunter as Kara flies Myriad out to space where the harmful brainwaves can do no harm. 

Okay, Indigo is a Brainiac. Not just any Brainiac, but Brainiac 8. She's a Titans/Young Justice character. Originally, she was sent to kill Donna Troy because the events that take place after "Crisis on Infinite Earths" negate Coluan domination over organics. Brainiacs are a type of android or living computer, as are Coluans. She is both a Brainiac and a Coluan.  She eventaully turns good, but can't fight the evil that is Brainiac. Indigo in Supergirl is absolutely nothing like Indigo in the comics. Not to mention that we meet Brainiac 5 in season 4 and there is not even a mention of Brainiac 8.  You'd think if this team had killed a member of your family, you'd mention it.

Indigo was annoying at best.  The costume was okay, I guess. Sexy Brainiac is always going to be weird. Sexy seductive Brainiac is creepy as hell if you understand and know the history of the Brainiac family. No thank you.  So, just the fact that she was nothing like her comic version and she came out of nowhere and she creeped me out, Indigo lands at #6.

Indigo is #6

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Okay, you know what? I have written far more than I planned to and this is taking way longer than I expected, so, we're going to make this a two-parter.  This is part 1.  10-6. Part 2 will be 5-1. 

Feel free to comment or share your thoughts on my ranking and list so far.

The worst is yet to come.

The absolute WORST. The most underused, completely screwed up, over-hyped and character assassinated Villains of all.

The ones with so much potential that left us disappointed and sometimes a little mad.

Thanks for stopping by!

Saturday, January 11, 2020

New Comic Review: Star

I know, another post!  I'm on a roll! Okay, so on NCBD (New Comic Book Day) I picked up the 1st issue of a comic titled "Star".  I liked the cover art, it was a female on the cover, and I flipped through it and was impressed with the art.  Good art will sell me a comic every time.

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(cover by Carmen Carnero) 

I got it home and learned it tied in with Captain Marvel.  The wife is completely up-to-date on Captain Marvel, which I believe is on issue 12, and I'm on like, issue 4.  I didn't realize how tied in it was, but T (My wife) explained to me later that it was a big tie-in. 

Star's real name is Ripley Ryan. 

It was a solid read, good writing and fantastic art.  Kelly Thompson is the writer and let me tell you kids, there's nothing she has written that I haven't loved.  She's a super duper comic writer.  In fact, I had no idea how many things she had written that I had picked up and loved until I did a little research.  Her run on Jem & the Holograms, Mr. and Mrs. X with Rogue and Gambit, and of course, Captain Marvel. 

I definitely want to read issue 2. 

I highly recommend picking up the last 12 issues, or at least the TP (Trade paperback) of Captain Marvel by Kelly Thompson, but you can pick up Star issue 1 right now.  It does a great job of filling you in on what happened to get the character to were she is when issue 1 starts, so you don't really feel lost or like you have to read Captain Marvel.

Oh, and did I mention she has an Infinity stone lodged inside her chest? 

Thanks for stopping by.

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Wednesday, January 08, 2020


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Supergirl 38


Okay, see, for real. I'm blogging more.  Welcome back.  Not only am I a fan of the Supergirl series on CW, I've been reading Supergirl since before her relaunch in comics.  I have amassed most of Sterling Gates Supergirls and the New 52 as well. This past holiday I was even gifted with the November 1974 first issue of Supergirl by my lovely wife. 

It's NCBD (New Comic Book Day) today and I went down to my local shop and picked up the newest issue of the Maid of Might, Supergirl 38.  There were 2 covers available at my shop. The one you see above with the titles and everything and one by Artgerm.  While I do appreciate a good Artgerm cover, I opted for the one with Wonder Woman because, well, Wonder Woman.  She and Kara don't get to spend time together much these days, so this was a little more tempting than Artgerm's cover.

[DC Comics; Supergirl (series 7) 38 (variant cardstock cover - Derrick Chew)]
(Artgerm Variant Cover)

We get a whole bunch of Krypto in this issue.  Krypto has become a pretty steady sidekick since Lois and Clark's son, Jon, left with the Legion of Superheroes.  I love that.  I've always been a big Krypto fan, and honestly, Krypto is good for her.  Even though Kara has been infected by the Batman Who Laughs, Krypto has stuck by her and done the best he can to help her.  He's the best boy.

So, as I mentioned Kara has been infected by The Batman Who Laughs.  My first introduction to this character was in DC's mini-series Dark Knights: METAL.  He was aiming for Superman, but Kara caught the infected Bat-a-rang that was headed for Kal. Since then, 5 other heroes were also infected and they were referred to as the "Secret Six".  I'm not sure what the Secret Six was supposed to do or amount to but it seemed like just a cute little name they tacked on.  Everyone went their separate way from Supergirl immediately after one issue.

Kara's been infected now for about 3 issues, if I'm remembering correctly, as well as in Batman/Superman and the Supergirl Annual 2.  What the infection has done is a bit interesting.  It has brought her trauma to the forefront. All the trauma of losing her planet, losing her culture, and ultimately being the only REAL Kryptonian left.  Kal-El/Clark is Kryptonian by blood, but he was raised in Kansas by midwestern people with midwestern values.  He remembers nothing of Krypton, and in most of the past timelines has had little more than a passing curiosity about learning about his people.

Kara, on the other hand was anywhere from 12 to 18, depending on what version you go with, when she left Krypton.  She remembers everything.  She had friends, family, and a life there.
The infection has convinced her she needs to infect the world to "save" them. Of course, infecting the world is exactly what The Bat Who Laughs wants. Part of Kara's trauma is saving Earth.  She lost hers and she would do anything to save Earth. It is the underlying reason Kara is a Superhero. The trauma of losing everything.

Wonder Woman shows up to try and help.  There's a pretty good fight and...well, Spoilers.  You'll have to read it.

Overall, it was a good issue.  Good writing and good art.  I hope they explore this trauma further and I hope Krypto keeps tagging along.  Supergirl comics often play into the other titles and help prop up whatever storylines they have going on.  I would really love to see a strong storyline of her own soon.  I got ideas, DC.  E-mail me.

Sunday, December 29, 2019

Let's Talk Supergirl: Lena Luthor Edition

Hello Weirdos!

I'm thinking about making that my fanbase name.  You're all a bunch of weirdos.  I'm head weirdo.

Okay, on to our topic.  Supergirl and her BFF Lena Luthor.  You might be here because the tags #Supergirl #LenaLuthor led you here.  Let me tell you right up front, I heavily ship Supercorp.  However, that said, I am not one of those horrible people that attack the actors or the actors husbands because they play a character on a tv show that they don't like.  I can tell reality from fantasy.  Most of the time.

Lena Luthor.  Lena Luthor.  Lena Luthor captured my heart quicker than any character on a TV show ever has.  It was love at first site.  Not sexual love or romantic love, but a kind of parallel or sympathetic love.  Love for a fellow-sufferer.  Compassionate love. I just knew she was someone I was going to root for. She was someone I wanted to see be victorious in overcoming the Luthor name.  They set me up for that in her very first episode, "The Adventures of Supergirl".

"I'm just a woman, trying to make a name for herself, outside her family. You understand that?"

Like Kara, I was nodding yes. Yes, I do.  100%

"Give me a chance, Mr. Kent.  I'm here for a fresh start. Let me have one."

Yeah, Mr. Kent!  Let her have one!

Seriously. That was it.  I was on Lena's side instantly.  My affinity for her only grew stronger with each episode.  I felt very akin to Ms. Luthor.  I wasn't able to put my finger on it right away, but over the series it became crystal clear.

Lena Luthor was a trauma survivor.

Her real mother died when she was 4.  She watched her drown and blamed herself for not saving her.  Someone had convinced her this was something she should have done. Someone made her believe she didn't do enough. Someone made her feel guilty about it. We're never specifically told who, but it's easy to figure out who.  Her adoptive Mother.  Lillian Luthor.  Either directly, or indirectly through her mental abuse.

Lillian Luthor. Narcissist.

Lillian Luthor. Who despite her sons crimes, feels he is the golden child.  He can do no wrong, while Lena can do no right.  We do see her change her mind about her son once he tries to kill her.  Narcissists don't generally forgive that.

Lillian Luthor. Who had zero nurturing skills and passive aggressively tore Lena apart every chance she got.

Lillian Luthor. A personality I was all too familiar with.

Lena was smarter than Lillian.  She was smarter than Lex.  Lillian hated her for it.  Lillian hated her for many reasons.  One being the fact that Lena was the result of her husband's infidelity. At least Lena had that going for her.  Lillian wasn't her REAL Mother.  However, as we all know, the people that raise you are the people that fuck you up or give you the life coping skills you need.

I was seeing myself.  Here was a character trying to overcome everything she'd been through.  All the trauma, all the guilt, all the suffering, all the passive aggressive comments and jabs. She was alone. No one was on her side.  Not until Kara Danvers came along.

What she had accomplished was amazing.  She stood proud.  She was smart. She was beautiful.  She was creative and inventive and all she wanted in the world was to help people.  She was a very good businesswoman and in helping made a huge profit.  There's nothing shady about that.  Some Supergirl fans disagree.

Lena has always walked in the misty areas of good/bad.  She's what I would describe as a gray character.  Not overtly good but certainly not bad.  Her traumas and suffering absolutely color her choices, but in the opposite way of her brother's.  Lex Luthor wants to harm and maim and kill just as much as Lena wants to heal and help and save. Sometimes, her isolation and trauma hamper her understanding of what is considered "socially acceptable".

People that haven't been isolated,  raised by a narcissist, lied to constantly and had their moral compass smashed to bits and had to find their own way have a hard time understanding characters like this.

Lena not only had a Narcissist parent, but an addict parent and a megalomaniac psychopath brother.  Lena Luthor is incredibly strong to have overcome so much, right?  Well, as we are learning, no.

Lena is broken and has no coping skills.  She suffers from invalidation, instability, exploitation, manipulation, neglect, not being able to tell when someone is being superficial and control issues.  It's why, season after season we have watched Lena invite the wrong people into her life.  Queen Rhea, Eve Tessmacher, and more.  She literally runs to people who need fixed because she wants to help them. Desperately.  She is trying to save the world, cure cancer, be a hero BECAUSE of her trauma.  She trusts no one and at the same time trusts too soon when she thinks there's a connection, hoping for validation.  She had closed herself off completely after leaving Jack. Jack, who, for what we were shown, seems to have been really good for her.  Which is probably part of the reason she left.  Shame and guilt.  She most likely felt he deserved better.  Her Brother had just murdered who knows how many people in Metropolis trying to kill Superman.  She couldn't smear his name with her trauma.  She had to leave.  Run away. And she did. Right to Supergirl.

Lena's first interactions with Supergirl were interesting.  She was clearly thrilled to be teaming up.  Her over-enthusiasm fits perfectly with someone suffering the traumas of a Narcissistic parent. Especially when the other child had tried to kill a Super and failed.  It was rebellion and validation all in one.  Supergirl accepted her.  Supergirl BELIEVED in her.  Then, inevitably, Supergirl let her down. They had a disagreement and that was it.  Lena was done with her.  This too, is part of her trauma.  She still had Kara. Kara Danvers.  She clung to Kara.

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And then the reveal.  Not by the person she trusted the most. No. By the person that had just manipulated and used her.  By the person that she had decided was a clear and present danger to the person she loved most in all the world.  Kara Danvers.  She killed her brother for Kara Danvers.  Kara Danvers, who ended up being someone who didn't need protecting at all.  She killed her brother for the Girl of Steel.  She broke.  Completely.

So here we are.  Season 5.  Lena is completely broken and making self-destructive choices.  How do I feel?  Scared to death.  Television isn't kind to people suffering from mental abuse and who have mental illness. Television often makes them the "bad guy" and irredeemable. I don't want to see this.

What do I want to see?  Well, let me tell you.  I want to see a group of friends decide that hell no, they aren't going to let their friend self-destruct. I want to see the challenges and the fight to help her.


That's Supergirl's motto. So show me, Supergirl.  Don't just tell me.  SHOW ME.

Show me, show the world, that mental illness can be managed.  Show the world how to not give up on someone and steer them towards healing.  Show the world that therapy and love and compassion can heal.  Show me that there's hope for Lena Luthor and in the process that there's all those things for people like her.  Lena wants help.  We've seen it throughout this arc.  If she didn't, it'd be a different story.

Lena is Good.  They will never convince me otherwise. Please don't let these characters fail her.

This cast has recently come forward about trauma and abuse and mental illness. Our very own Supergirl came forward as a victim of Intimate Partner Violence.  Melissa's Instagram video was harrowing and brave and so needed.  Chris Wood has a charity called "I Don't Mind" that helps with mental wellness.  Chyler Leigh recently came forward as bi-polar in an effort to help erase the stigma of mental illness.  All of this, so important, but you know what is also important?  Showing it in the fictional realm.  Showing it in storytelling.  Showing the world that someone like Lena Luthor can be okay.  That she is loved.  That people care.  That she is valid and deserving and that mistakes can be righted.  We've learned over the last 100 years how impactful television can be.  Even now, the propaganda machine is at war with storytelling and facts.

Come on, Supergirl.  Do this.  Not just for me.  Do it for all of us that have sat through series after series watching those gray characters, those hurting characters, those survivors of trauma we identified with vilified.  It's time to change the conversation.  Fight for Lena.

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Hello Faithful Followers

Wow, 10/29/18 was the last time I blogged?  Really?  Sheesh.  I doubt there's anyone left to read this, but hello.

I recently changed jobs, and that is going to free up more time for me to devote back to this space.  I've missed it.  I really love breaking down shows and thinking out loud and sharing what I'm excited about.

The internet has changed a ton since I started this blog.  It's become less about learning and more about attacking people and narcissism.  Narcissism is going to be a topic I'm going to get into eventually here.  In fact, we're going to start talking about mental illness regularly.  Don't be scared though.  It's going to be okay.

Let's see.  What's happened since 10/29/18?  Oh yeah, my Dad tried to die on my birthday.  He has chronic appendicitis and he went septic and shut down on my birthday in 2018.  They had to pump 4 different blood pressure meds into him, have a line right into his heart, and put him on a ventilator just to keep him alive.  I learned quite a bit about hospitals, which was very fortunate because on July 11, 2019, my wife had a motorcycle accident.

Now, let me stop right there and tell you, there is nothing scarier than getting a call from the person you love most on this planet, and the entire universe for that matter, and hearing her tiny afraid and hurting voice on the other side telling you to hurry and get to her because she's been in a motorcycle accident.  Not just a car accident.  A MOTORCYCLE accident.

My head was spinning.  Was she dying?  Were her guts hanging out?  Were there bones protruding from places that bones weren't supposed to protrude from?  I was going to get on my Motorcycle and ride to her, but luckily a co-worker talked me out of it and took me.  A queer co-worker.  Someone who understood.  He was amazing.

Have you watched that show with Angela Bassett?  9-11?  We watched it all the time and loved it.  Remember the motorcycle accident one?  The dude, for his 40th birthday, buys a Harley and sets off and immediately gets into an accident that separates his top half from his bottom half and his guts are in the street but he doesn't realize he's dead already and calls his kid to say Happy Birthday or something before he dies.  Yeah, that's all I could think about.

I was back and forth between absolute panic and calm control.

I got there, ran to her, was happy to see her all in one piece, grabbed her little hand and told her she was okay.

I had no idea if she was okay.  For all I knew she was internally bleeding.  I was completely calm once I got to her.  I was a little surprised how well I did.  I beat the damn ambulance there.  She was in a whole lot of pain.

Let me tell you, seeing the most important person in your life screaming in utter pain as they lift them from the asphalt to a board to a gurney is hard.  Weird instincts kick in and you have to fight them.

So yeah, all of that was new and terrible. Also, quite a learning experience. I definitely feel like an adult now.  That might sound silly, but mental abuse can keep you from believing plenty about yourself. And just like that, we're back to mental health.

Okay, well, my next post is going to be Supergirl related.  Heavy on the Lena Luthor. Yep, still on that.  I love me some Supergirl.  Lena Luthor has a special place in my heart.